You ARE Love, Now What Is It That You Need?
This day I didn’t find inner peace. This day there was going to be an explosion, a demolition of the patterns that had been my focus for so long. As I was sitting on my rock a thought came through that was the pin in the grenade. It was simply “what if the love that I’m looking for doesn’t exist?” When my attention held that thought something shifted. In that moment all of my thinking stopped, I lost my breath and I felt uncomfortably dizzy. It felt like an electric charge had gone through my head. I knew enough about strokes to know that I wasn’t having one, so I got my unsteady self up and stumbled up the hill to the house. I spent most of the day lying down going in and out of sleep. Strangely, the obsession that had been my constant companion for all those years was gone. The exhaustion that had set in was an honest one, and a liberating one.